And I still do. But getting it out onto a blog is becoming quite hard because I think of what to say when I am at the gym and I cannot obviously write it down while I am on the treadmill, now can I? No, so by the time I get home, most of what I wanted to say doesn’t seem that great by the time I get to my laptop to put it down.
It’s been 2 weeks since I spoke to S. It’s been easier then I anticipated which bothers me slightly. I think if it feels easy for me, it probably feels easy for him to. But then again who knows what he is thinking, or if he even cares??? I don’t even know if I want to communicate with him again. I know, his lies have really hurt me. 3 weeks ago he said he’d send me a birthday present. Why say this if you are not going to follow through? How can I trust that, or him? Does he not realise it’s not so easy for me to just forget he lied, especially on my birthday of ALL days? he’s not that bad a person, is he? I don’t want to think he is. Grrrrrrr …
I’m seriously annoyed. Seriously!
