I miss you …A letter I am writing him but won’t be sending …
Dear S
I miss you. Yes I miss you. I said it … But I am not going to talk to you. Why? Because I want to come back to you as the person I was when you met me, the person who had not a care in the world, the person who smiled and laughed and loved being in your company, yes THAT girl. The girl you said was too cute, the girl you called lots of fun, the girl you trusted and loved kissing and hugging. The girl you loved receiving massages from. Well that girl is still here, she never left … she just lost her way a wee bit, but she is pretty much back, and she is trimmer then she was when we met, and she has longer hair … but she is still the mysterious girl you were so very attracted to. And maybe, just maybe, I love you … who am I kidding, of course I love you, or I would not be missing you.
You were the first person to get to me, my heart, under my skin in such a way that it’s made me nuts. But you are also the only person where I did not react when you said you wanted a step back, I did not react when you said you were not ready for a relationship right now, I simply agreed, because I knew that one day we WILL be together. Why do I know this? I feel it in my bones, I feel you … You know I do, you know we have a connection, hence why you shit yourself … you know it, and I know it … but I want you to REALLY know it and feel it. I want you to miss me as much as I miss you.
I know you got a shock when I agreed I wasn’t ready for a relationship. I remember your response of, ‘Oh, I thought you wanted a relationship?’ I never once said that … I wanted to get to know you, I wanted to learn about you, I never once wanted to change you … You don’t need to be changed, you are perfect for me. You are exactly what I want inside and out. I know you have a hard time accepting this, but you better believe it.
You and me, we’ll be together, it’s only a matter of time. Time, the key word in all of this, and patience. Patience is worth everything when it involves being with the one person you feel alive around, the one person you know is PERFECT …
See you in my dreams.
